🖤 'Concerning This Valley /Journey' 🖤

🖤🌷"It is better to look AHEAD and PREPARE, than to look BACK and REGRET" (T-U - 'Pinterest')❣️It is 'MOTHER'S DAY,' "2020," and, it is the worst one of my life, because, i'm celebrating HER (my dear mother), but, she is absent (deceased)❣️💔🖤 However, it comforts me to KNOW that, she is in Heaven (2 Corinthians 5:8)❣️✝️💝 And, yes, i'm still in this "valley of 14 years" (it began whenever my poppa Gary died, in "2006")❣️BUT, JESUS is, walking with, and, sometimes carrying, me, through it❣️✝️🙌🏼💜 Sometimes, i'm tempted to believe the lie from demonic forces, which, whisper in my "ear," saying lies, such as, "i'm never going to ever get out of this "valley,"" but, then, the always faithful Holy Spirit, ministers to me, exactly what HE knows i need❣️And, one more time (as HE has done - OFTENTIMES - previously), HE helps me take another "step," in the RIGHT (HIS) direction❣️💞😔🙌🏼🕊 Part of taking that next step, is by setting my mind straight, along with listening to HIS sweet Spirit, by renewing it with the wonderful Word of God (Galatians 6:9, Romans 10:17)❣️🕊📖✝️ To be honest, i sort of feel like my life is "on hold," until i hear from the surgeon in regards to what he thinks we need to do about this "hernia," after he has examined the results of the CT-scan, which, has been put on hold, because of the 'CoVid-19' ordeal, for a while‼️...UGH‼️‼️😩 Without a doubt, there is probably, at least one, reading this post, who, is, also, "drudging" through a long "valley," and, i, sincerely pray that, this post somehow, helps to keep you going, encourages and blesses you, lightens your load, and the such (may The sensitive Holy Spirit minister to you, whatever, HE knows you need, as you read this)❣️🙏🏼💝 i wouldn't be in this specific "valley," IF, i weren't a 'Believer,' BUT, i'd rather be in this "valley," than, to not belong to Christ Jesus❣️HE uses everything that we go through for HIS purposes (for us, others, HIS plan, etc.) (Romans 8:26-39)❣️ i do not know the way out of this "valley," but, HE does❗️There are many "side streets," that, "tempt" me, on which, to turn❗️However, HE has taught me that, it is, wise and best, to WAIT on HIS guidance (Proverbs 3:5+6)❣️Upon a 'Dove' chocolate candy wrapper, i just read the words, "exhale the past"..."inhale the future" (author - Layne R., from Ohio), which, seems timely (for this post), to me❣️This is actually WISE advice for, anybody and everybody❣️😘 Then, written on candy wrapper #2 (🤣), on which, i just read, and, is also applicable, are the words, "Keep life moving FORWARD,... looking backward is only for time travelers" (author, Rachel O., of Washington), and, i'm definitely not a time traveler❣️🤣🤣🤣 The Scripture that immediately comes to my mind is, Hebrews 12:1-14❣️📖 Letting JESUS lead me through this "valley," is the wisest, and yet, sometimes, the seemingly most difficult, way to continue on and make progress, for this really is a "long, personal valley/Journey" for me❣️🙏🏼✝️💚 One of my, vices and enemies, is that, i over analyze certain situations (OCD?)❣️😳 Doing this, most certainly hinders my "valley" traveling❣️i need to remember to remind myself, believe, quote, and live, etc., the following Scriptures concerning my "over thinking" (1 Peter 5:7, Philippians 2:5, 4:6-8, Romans 12:2, ETC.)❣️This thought (came to me, as i was intensely thinking - hehehe!) just came to me...it's as though i've been put in a "clothes washer" (life), and, have been going through the cycles (soak, extra clean-wash, rinse, spin), for quite a while now, and, am presently, stuck on a long "spin cycle" (shall it ever end??)❣️😜💞🤣 Nevertheless, my time in this "valley," or "washing machine," is part of HIS sanctification (practically) process, which, is part of HIS plan, or destiny, "if, you will," for my life❣️And, even if, some of this "journey" is HIS, discipline and/or chastisement, of me (His child), "IT'S ALL GOOD," because, HE is omniscient, wise, and a GOOD Father, ETC., and, i confidently TRUST HIM❣️✝️📖🕊💜 Whenever, i am walking, while, continually looking backward, i, inevitably, mess up straight forward movement/advancement❣️Thus, "backward obsessing" is also conducive to such things as:  tripping, falling, running into objects, and the such, which is NO FUN❣️🤣 After all, " my future needs me...my past doesn't" (Pinterest) (yours, also)❣️😘 Another analogy of how i "feel," presently, is, as if, i, were a horse, and, someone rode me really, hard and long, then, left me, hot and sweaty, in my stall, without walking and cooling, me down❣️😰🤣 SO, the POINT/LESSON that, i'd like to convey with this post is:  LET GO of the past (gleaning the lessons learned, good memories, love, etc.), quit looking back (especially, with regret), and, look and move, FORWARD (whether or not you are in a "valley") (with The Holy Spirit as your guide), while, keeping your eyes on JESUS, because, IF, you don't, NOTHING shall, change and/or get better, and, you'll miss out on God's wonderful DESTINY/PLAN, in which, HE has available for you (if, you miss it, you'll regret it for eternity)❣️Cast off the weights, fears, questions, guilt, regret, and all, AND, be "unshackled," and, "Run, Forest, Run" (as, Jenny would say, in the movie, 'Forest Gump'!)❣️ 😘 Please, understand that, i do not suggest this "LIGHTLY," as, my doing this is currently a work in progress❣️😘🖤 However, for it to "materialize," for any of us, it MUST start with a, DECISION and commitment, within the mind❣️Then, one must LET The Spirit do the "WALK'N," for him/her (Galatians)❣️📖🙏🏼🕊 If, i (or - you), mentally OBSESS about HOW, many and difficult, the STEPS ahead shall be to reach the destination, then, i (maybe, you, too), shall become overwhelmed, weary, etc.❣️So, i need to completely concentrate on letting The Lord assist me in taking the very next "step"❣️🚶🏻‍♀️Then, step by step, by FAITH, one day, as, my mother and countless others have, i'll (🙏🏼'ing - you too) take my last step into Heaven, and, find Jesus before me (2 Corinthians 5:8)❣️✝️ GOD has already provided (through Christ's finished work) plenty of GRACE for HIS children❣️✝️ And, as a 'Believer,' that, glorious GRACE meets him/her, as, he/she takes that step (present tense), precisely in that particular moment, over, and, over, again, and, again, throughout his/her life (Hebrews 5:16)❣️✝️🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 FORGET your PAST, FORGIVE yourself, and, BEGIN again - RIGHT NOW" (T-U - 'Pinterest')❣️You can BEGIN again as many times as you need throughout your existence❣️😘😘😘 So, a couple days ago, i looked on my calendar, and, was surprised to see an appointment set with my surgeon❣️😳 I had forgotten that, whenever, he cancelled my last appointment, due to the 'COVID-19' pandemic, that, we had rescheduled another appointment, for tomorrow❣️Anyway, i got all upset about it, after, I confirmed with the doctor's office that, indeed, it had been❣️The demon of ANXIETY immediately began attacking me❣️So, I asked some of my people to pray for me about it❣️A little while later, I called the office back, to reschedule today's appointment, and, praise The Lord, as we talked, I ended up being able to change it from an actual  physical appointment, to a telephone one, which, immediately decreased the anxiety - greatly❣️So, it is 12:02, Thursday, 5/14/29, presently, and, my phone appointment is at 1:00❣️I am still wrestling with anxiety, dread, etc., concerning this "journey," especially, today's conversation with the surgeon, and, WHAT he says to me (based on the results of my 'CT scan,' what he recommends we, do and/or don't do, about it, etc.)❣️However, I am TRYING to TRUST my LORD with everything involved in this "journey," on which, I find myself❣️I have to CHOOSE to continually cast ALL of my "concerns" upon HIM, knowing that, GOD, honors and answers, prayers, loves me, has a plan for my life, ETC., ETC., otherwise, I, sincerely believe that, this "fourteen year valley/journey," would cause me to have a 'nervous breakdown,' at this point of the "trip," understanding that, only by  HIS, GRACE, ETC., have I not already had one (and, maybe, i have?!)❣️I'll continue to keep ya'll updated on this "journey" of mine, for those, who, care and pray, and, because, it is therapeutic for me to write (...😂...vent, "if, you will") about it❣️📖🕊✝️  I shall close with the following quote by Rigel J. Dawson (plantedtrees.com)..."You will NEVER get to where you're going, IF, you keep looking over your shoulder for the approval of people you're leaving!" 🤔😏😘...LET'S, take heed to the following quote/recommendation by Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.:  "If you cannot fly then run, if you cannot run then walk, if you cannot walk then crawl, but, whatever you do you HAVE to KEEP MOVING FORWARD" (i'm somewhere between, walking and crawling!😏😘😂)❣️👣👣👣...ONWARD and FORWARD - i go...💞💞💞...🙏🏼✝️📖🕊The song, to which, i recommend you listen, which, correlates with this blogpost, is:  'KEEP WALK'N,' by, TOBY MACK❣️🎶🎶😘🚶🏻‍♀️🚶🏻‍♀️🚶🏻‍♀️💞💞💞 ...👋🏼...until next post