💁🏻💃🏻'My Will VS. "S/S"' 🙏🏼🙌🏼

💖✈️🚘🎥💃🏽😎"WORLDLY SUCCESS," was what I THOUGHT, as a girl, that, I would achieve, "one day," as an adult❣️😗As a child, what did you imagine that your future held? 🤔HOWEVER, for me, instead, it's been, one INTENTIONAL, SURRENDER and SUBMISSION (I'll be using "S/S" to represent this, in this post), after another, throughout my journey, as an adult Believer, which, is the complete opposite of the first nineteen years of my existence❣️This has left me "in a tailspin," which, typically, lead to me "crashing and burning," oftentimes, as an adult‼️😱The definition of SURRENDER is:  (verb) Cease resistance to an enemy or opponent and SUBMIT to AUTHORITY (GOD is the ultimate AUTHORITY - may I add)‼️The definition of SUBMISSION is:  (verb) SUBMIT (sub-mit) to align my WILL with GOD'S to find FREEDOM, DIRECTION, and TRUE PURPOSE‼️Throughout my childhood, I basically did, anything and everything that, I really desired to do, which, set me up with the propensity to be disappointed - A LOT, upon (as my "learned," habitual - way of dealing with life had it) "leaning to my own understanding," rather than, trusting the TRUTHS of God's, Word and Spirit (Proverbs 3:5+6)❣️My first big, life affecting, SURRENDER, as an adult, was whenever, I was eighteen years "old," had come home for 'Christmas Break,' from 'Ohio University,' which, is renowned for being a "party" school, and, to be completely honest, PITIFULLY, was one of the main reasons that, I chose to go there (another reason being - a certain guy went there - being the fickle "lil" lady that I WAS! 🤣)❣️The Good Lord had been "dealing with me," for a month or so, concerning my sinful lifestyle, and had, late one night, dramatically spoken to my heart, letting me know that, HE loved me - ANYWAY❣️❣️🖤💔✝️💜 I had set my mind, before leaving 'OU' for break, that, I was going to go to church - sometime over 'Christmas break'❣️LET ME WRITE, right here that, SURRENDERING to GOD'S WILL, instead of continuing on, "DOING ONE'S OWN THING," is NOT an EASY, choice to make, nor, endeavor TO which, actually SUBMIT, and then, DO‼️‼️ So, I DID go to church over break, and, I also, went to the alter, repented to HIM for the sinful way, in which, I'd been living, and, SURRENDERED my "WILD WILL" to HIM.  I had NO idea what lie ahead of me, as far as, SUBMISSION and SURRENDER ("S/S"), as "HIS GAL"‼️😳😳🤣 I WAS going to be something "GREAT" ("worldly speaking"), or, so I thought...NOW WHAT (I wondered!)⁉️😏🙄🤣 Since that "DAY OF SURRENDER," I have, "faced" and been tested, with MANY "CROSSROADS," of  "MY WILL VS. SURRENDER and/or SUBMISSION/GOD'S WILL"‼️To be completely, transparent and honest, oftentimes, my "flesh" and soul (mind, will and emotions), usually, want to "DO their own thing," and, vehemently do NOT want to "S/S" to GOD'S WILL‼️Sometimes, I make the right CHOICE, and, sometimes, I do not, at which point - I am, dealt with by My Father, am HUMBLED - a little bit more, and I, hopefully, LEARN (sometimes, I don't even learn, and, have to repeat the entire "process")‼️😩🤣The next major "SURRENDERING" for me, was whenever, I chose to marry the man, whom, God had conspicuously put in my life, whom, HE had providentially planned to be my husband (it is clear now - 35 years later - that, part of the plan has been, for us to serve as "spiritual sandpaper" to one another - hehe❣️🤣)‼️ Actually, there were a couple more "S/S," before I was given the marital one‼️😩 One of those "S/S," was, whenever, I realized that, I was pregnant, panicked, and, felt like I HAD to get married, although, we were already engaged, and, was tempted to call off the marriage, and, "run away"‼️However, The Holy Spirit, reminded me that, in spite of the fact that, we HAD sinned against God, by having premarital sex, David was still the one WHOM, it was HIS plan/will, for me to marry❣️I needed to repent of that sin, and, I did❣️HE reminded me that, the LIFE (Jeremy), who, HE had given me, inside my womb, was a, blessing and gift, from HIM❣️So, I SURRENDERED to holy matrimony with David - 35+ years ago, and then, "the  learning to SUBMIT to my husband lessons," BEGAN‼️😳😨🤣 From that point on, from, surrendering to being a "homemaker/stay-at-home mom," to, agreeing to be a preacher's wife (in submission to my hubby - and - one specific time - of - being a pastor's wife - whenever - I knew that - we were stepping OUT of God's perfect will for us, and, a couple other times, whenever, I was certain that, it was part of HIS "perfect will" for us, and, time and time again, with - ministry, family, relational, social, career, etc., situations, the "S/S" LESSONS - faithfully continue (still)‼️😫🙏🏼✝️ The times, in which, I have chosen to NOT, "S/S," while understooding that, it WAS The Lord's desire that I do so, have ALWAYS left me with a ton of REGRET‼️My LORD has ABUNDANTLY BLESSED ME - each and every time that, I've CHOSEN to, "S/S," to HIS will, for me❣️Obviously, Believers, are required to "S/S," more than sinners (unsaved people in the world), but, is it just me, or, does it seem to be a reality that, adult women are, required and/or pressured, more often than men, with the dilemma of, whether or not to "S/S"⁉️ 😏 💜A life, which, is characterized as being one of "S/S," is "found" in a person whom, completely SURRENDERS to GOD'S will at one point in his/her life, and then, "a million more times" throughout his/her life‼️Sometimes, even a "S/S" person, shall CHOOSE to NOT "S/S" (in small and/or big ways), in which case, The Lord considers this as, DISOBEDIENCE and/or REBELLION, and, with which, HE SHALL, DEAL, DISCIPLINE, CHASTISE (by whatever means - HE knows is, needed and best, per situation), HIS child, in accordance with  HIS - LOVE, SOVEREIGNTY, OMNISCIENCE, ETC.❣️Some people, sadly, never choose to, consider, let alone - fully "S/S," themselves, because, they want to be "in control" of their own lives, which, is quite understandable!  It is each person's prerogative to manage his/her life as he/she so pleases!  However, these people (specifically - Believers), MISS OUT on A LOT of God's special blessings, by living selfish, self-centered, etc., lives‼️😔 Is it easy to "S/S," one may ask? And, my answer is..."ABSOLUTELY NOT"‼️‼️ Andrew Harvey writes:  "SURRENDER is deeply misunderstood as an act of weakness.    SURRENDER is the bravest and most lucid thing a human ever does, and that's why it's so precious to the DIVINE"❣️MY "LIFE LESSON" TO SHARE WITH YOU ON THIS POST IS:  SURRENDERING/SUBMITTING ("S/S") to GOD'S WILL, brings me such things as - peace of mind, satisfaction, contentment, God's "special blessing," and the such❣️Whereas, NOT doing so, brings me things like - restlessness, a guilty mind, fear, doubt, God's discipline (which can come in various forms), and the such❣️Therefore, I have learned that, it is better to temporarily suffer, due to, "S/S," and, sacrificing - selfish, worldly, etc., ambitions and desires, than, to NOT "S/S," and then, HAVE to deal with the consequences❣️✝️ I must repeatedly remind myself of the following truth, which, is perfectly described on 'mommamiamoments.com,' which, I read on 'Pinterest':  "The strongest position you can be in is COMPLETE SURRENDER"❣️PRAYER (also, fasting - at times), is "the key," for me, concerning the frustrating times, whenever, I need to "S/S," but, I'm really struggling to do so ("flesh vs. spirit)❣️Somehow, God, honors and blesses, my, sincere and honest, prayers, of me, begging for HIM to help me to "S/S," etc., with encouragement, etc., from The - Holy Spirit, Word, Angels, people (nudged by HIM to minister to me - however, HE knows - is needed), ETC.😔🙏🏼✝️📖🕊💞💞Especially, in the life of a Believer, "S/S" brings VICTORY in one's daily walk, with and for, CHRIST❣️I wish that, I could say that, I always "S/S," nevertheless, the instances when I don't, HIS GRACE covers me❣️✝️🙌🏼 The following are some Scriptures pertaining to the subject of "S/S":  James 4:7, 1 Peter 2:13, 5:5, Colossians 3:18, Ephesians 5:22, Hebrews 13:17 🙏🏼📖🕊✝️🙌🏼The poignant hymn, 'I SURRENDER ALL,' is "playing" in my mind, 🎶🎶 at the moment ❣️...👋🏼...until next post (I am going to be writing a monthly post on this blog, instead of a weekly one - through the upcoming, Summer months)...😘☺️😊🤳🏼💞💞💞...👋🏼...