😗 'The Humbling' 😩

💔😩 Just when I "THINK" that (leaning to my own understanding / Proverbs 3:5+6), God has, allowed and/or caused, me to be HUMBLED, as much as is possible, another "humbling - hammer and chisel," deservedly, "hammers down on," and, "chisels away at," me! 🔨⚒😩...For example:  where I currently "find" myself (personally), on my life's journey, is quite uncomfortable, humbling, discouraging, etc., in one sense, nevertheless, "on the other hand," I maintain a constant realization that, I am extremely BLESSED, FAVORED, etc.!  The "humble pie" part of it, causes me to be somewhat frustrated, sometimes (if, I dwell on all of it very long))! 🤔 Unreasonably high expectations (mine and other people's), pride, ego, and the such, also add to my "experience of humbling!" 😕 My injured back, with the chronic pain, physical limitations, and all, is pretty tough for a person who WAS very active, able, etc.), and, as other - difficulties from it, circumstances, and situations, etc., in my life, also, "seem" to multiply, and, fight against me. 😤 I probably "should" consider investigating into having surgery on my back, at this point, after being plagued by it for too long, BUT, for various, reasons and/or excuses, I cannot even think about starting the excruciating process of researching it, let alone - actually having it!! 😳😰 The main culprit preventing me from considering back surgery, is most likely - at it's core...FEAR!  This FEAR predominantly is attributed to the HORRIFIC medical ordeal, in which, my father (and our family) experienced, whenever, he had a hip replacement surgery, and which, complications from it, ultimately caused his untimely death! I really believe that, he died entirely too young, and that, his life was "cut short," as a result of medical incompetence and neglect!  This continues to be a TREMENDOUS loss to me, and, all of his loved ones! 💔😪 This FEAR, along with the other aggravations, with which, I deal, sometimes, turns into ANXIETY!  For me to even consider possibly starting this search, is OVERWHELMING, which also, flares up the upsetting "ISSUE" of ANXIETY, which, has somewhat improved in the past few months, because, I've been battling it with - more prayers of faith, and, HE'S answering me with HIS healing power working in me (I believe by faith)! 🙌🏼 I'm also, trusting more in the truths of HIS Word - concerning healing, etc.. Battling these issues, in front of inquisitive people (my husband is a preacher), further - humbles, embarrasses, perplexes, etc., me, which, IS part of the purpose for for the humbling process, I suppose!? 😜 I am continually casting ALL of it - on The Lord, over and over again, trusting HIM to, lead and assist, me - step by step!  IF, and/or when, God desires, as part of HIS plan for me, to have back surgery, HE shall lead me, into it (peace about it shall accompany this - inside me), one step at a time! 🙏🏼🙌🏼✝️💜 IF, you are a Believer, who prays, PLEASE, pray for me concerning this matter!  I sincerely desire for God's absolute perfect will be done, with this, and, EVERY SINGLE thing pertaining to me, and, my life!  I truly want to please my Lord!! Thank you very much! 🙏🏼✝️😘💜 IN SPITE OF MY STRUGGLE, deep within my spirit, I BELIEVE that, SOMEHOW, SOME WAY, and, I have NO idea HOW, according to God's providential, plan and guidance, "THIS, TOO - SHALL PASS," bringing, HONOR AND GLORY, to HIM, and, resulting in, mine and other people's, GOOD (Romans ch. 8)!! 🙏🏼✝️🙌🏼 The fact that I am even considering the possibility of considering researching the subject of a back surgery, IS, MAJOR PROGRESS (in this area of my life), for me! 😙 I suppose, upon mentally examining this...for a long time, for lots of reasons, I chose to not obsess about the inability for me to participate in all sorts of activities, in which, once, "came easily for me!" 😏 However, lately, it's beginning to "get to me," at times, as I am constantly confronted with events, etc., in which, I cannot do, and/or, in which, I choose not to participate, due to the overall difficulty of doing so - for me!  Isn't this SAD!? 😔 It's I found the movie, 'Facing the Giants,' on t.v., while "surfing the channels," a "bit" ago, and, am now watching it (have already seen it several times), and, it is the perfect movie for me to watch, while writing this post! 😘✝️💙 I highly recommend the viewing of this movie! 🎥😉👍🏼💖 This place, where I presently find myself, has me "feeling" sort of "paralyzed" on my journey of life, and, is an almost inexplicable, HUMBLING experience.  And, I am "at a loss," as to where to go, and/or, what to do about it, from here!?!?  📖 As The Bible says, in Psalm 46:10, I need to "be still, and KNOW that HE is God...," and, LET HIM speak to my spirit through The Holy Spirit, and, His Word!  After all, The Holy Spirit IS HIM, and, HE IS the author of The Bible!  HE knows exactly what HE'S doing with me! 🙏🏼🙌🏼📖🕊✝️💞💞 As I write this, I have a bad cold, which, my husband gave me, by kissing me goodbye a few times last week, whenever, he first got his bad cold!  I should have thought about that - before letting him kiss me, but, instead, I realized what had transpired - after I started coughing, ETC., from it! "Hindsight IS 20/20," isn't it?! 😏 A month ago, I had a "bug," for a couple days, which, felt like the '"flu," and, in between having it and this cold, I injured my right hand! Geeeesh!  And, of course, all sicknesses that I get, settle in my messed up back, with, the main    symptom being - worse PAIN in it!! 😩 I daily attempt to preemptively do things to be well, too (daily ingesting - Vitamin C, and, a multi-vitamin, etc.)!  Oh well, it could be SO MUCH WORSE!!  Right?!?! 😉 God is using "every last bit" of all of these tests, trials, and sorrows, etc., in HIS  "LOVING," "humbling, hammering and chiseling, of me!"  RIGHT?! 🔨⚒🙇🏻‍♀️ Whenever, I was thinking about the matter within this post, this morning (Sunday), the song, which, the Crabb family sings, entitled, 'Through the Fire,' came into my mind!  Because, humbling is part of the "FIRE," in which, HE has, allowed and/or put, me through!  I do believe that, whenever, God calls me 'HOME,' then, I shall be as "pure gold!"  HE is USING - EVERYTHING - in which, I experience in this life of mortality (JOB 23:10) to prepare me for Heaven! 🥇I'll make it to Heaven (at God's perfect time), because, I'm 'In Christ!' ✝️ However, my life, from the day, in which, I got 'SAVED' - ON - is preparing me for that glorious place! 🌅💖😇 You see, just like many of you - NOW, there was a long period of time, whenever, I was able to DO pretty much anything, in which, I desired to DO!  Some of my family, even jokingly, referred to me as being hyperactive (when I was young), at times!  I have an appointment with my chiropractor, Ms. Brooke, today, and, I'm sure that, just as she did a few years ago, whenever, I started going to her, she'll help me to keep moving (adjust and help my, back and right hand)!  Years ago, I regularly went to a chiropractor, but, whenever, we moved from that area, I discontinued going to one.  Then, my back had gotten really bad, several (?) years back, to where I was having difficulty DOING everything, SO, once again, I "bit the bullet," and, asked for some help!  I accredit, God, and Ms. Brooke (first name), with preventing me from becoming completely disabled! 🙌🏼👩🏻‍⚕️💖😌 However, although I am not a total invalid, for a while now, God has had me in a "position," where I am very limited - physically, and, only HE knows the, full extent and details, as to why!  And, although I absolutely, LOVE and TRUST, HIM, I HATE that I am dealing with this, and, I honestly, do NOT understand it! 😕 It helps me to remind myself of truths, such as, "a seed must, be buried, and die, before, it brings forth - new life!" 🌱🌳 I could have NEVER imagined, back when I did whatever I wanted, that, there would come a time, whenever, I, could and would not, be able to DO so!  This situation "bumfustles" me!  It is surreal!  I HAVE to trust GOD with it, or, I'd go "crazy," because, of the type of person that the real, true me - is - at my core! 🙎🏻💖 I heard a song, by 'Shane and Shane' (featuring John Piper), today, entitled, 'Though You Slay Me,' which, speaks to me, concerning some of the things, about which, I am writing in this post. 🎶 If, possible, try to give it a listen!  I'm certain that it shall minister to you! ✝️ LIFE LESSON:  LOVE AND TRUST GOD (no matter what your, situations and circumstances, in which, HE has, allowed and/or put, in your life, "seem" to be)!! 🙌🏼🎶🙏🏼🕊 Here's some "FOOD FOR THOUGHT":  IF, you are struggling, is it possible that, God, has allowed, and/or put, the situation in your life, as a means of assisting HIM in HIS work of love, with the "hammer and chisel of HUMBLING," you, or maybe, if, you are lost (not saved), could HE possibly be using it, as pressure in your life - to urge you to get 'saved?!'  Well, I'll let you go, now, and, I'll get back to getting humbled ("hammered and chiseled"), by God!  Hahaha!! 😘😂👍🏼 This afternoon (Tuesday - also - my wonderful mother's b-day), on my way home from getting my "nails-did" (ha!) appointment, by my beautiful, hard working, daughter, Camille (aka C.C.), the song by Natalie Grant, entitled, 'King of the World,' came on the radio, and, I immediately thought that, it would be another, inspirational song, that I should recommend to ya'll, and SO, I DO!! 👍🏼🎶💙 Therefore, IF, you've never heard it, or, never listened closely to the lyrics, I suggest that - you do so! 😘 The next post that I'll share ("The Good Lord will'n, and, the "crick" don't rise"), I'll be another year older (numerically - not mentally), which, is also, humbling! I am now an "old fogie!!"  BUT, my mind thinks I'm still a "teenie-bopper!!" 😏🤣 I turn 55 - in a few days! My, oh my, "time DO FLY!!" Ha! 😳🤣 PLEASE, know that, WHATEVER, any of us, are going through, we CAN trust JESUS!! ✝️🙏🏼🙌🏼...until my next post...💞👋🏼💞...🙌🏼