😩 'I CAN'T DO IT, DADDY!' 😪

❤️🎄 The part in the Christmas play, in which, I was given, by Ms. Annalee, whom one didn't want to - disappoint, displease, upset, etc., was memorized, and, the night of 'Sedan Baptist Church's' Christmas play's presentation had come. 🎭✝️ I could recite my part perfectly - at home - to my parents! 👧🏽 I was probably two years young. 💗 My part went like this..."baby Jesus came to earth...to save us all from sin...have you ever opened up your heart...and, let The Lord Jesus in?" ✝️ I have said that little saying - oftentimes - through the years - since that dreadful night! 🗣💞 I can't imagine that, I'll forget IT - as long as I live!? 💘😂 Anyway, it was dreadful, because, whenever, my time to speak came, the very shy, little girl that, I WAS, upon looking out at ALL of the people, who were staring at me, became, "paralyzed with fear and shyness," and FROZE!! 😳 Then, with several "stern-faced" (in my estimation - anyway) adults - telling me to say it, I broke down - crying - and, yelled out to my sweet daddy, something to the effect (mother told me this part of the story - just a couple weeks ago, which, is what the Holy Spirit used to speak to me, and, is what inspired this blog-post)..."I'M SCARED," and "I CAN'T DO IT, DADDY!!" 😪😂 Evidently, he went up on the stage, lifted me up, and, held me.  Then, he, coached and encouraged, me, as I recited my part. 🗣💙 Earlier this evening, I was thinking about this, especially, upon that, which involved my father.  I couldn't help but think about, how much I wish (selfishly) that, my poppa was still here with me/us! 😢 The past couple years have probably been two of the most difficult years of my fifty four years of life.  And, I'll be honest, and, tell you that, there have been times that I have wondered how in the world, I could "go on!"  HOW very wonderful it would be, if, I could call on my precious dad, and, he could come to my rescue, once again, just as he did, that, cold Winter's night, and, several more times - through the years! 😢 But, he's not here, so, he can't! 💔 However, I have an OMNI PRESENT - GOD, WHO, is also, my HEAVENLY FATHER, Who, can and does - OFTEN!!  HE ((hugs)) me at random times, like - whenever I'm - studying HIS WORD, praying, meditating, listening to music which exalts HIM, testifying about HIM, praising and worshipping HIM, ETC.! 💖 LIFE LESSON TIP:  IF, you desire and/or are in need of intimacy - go to God - FIRST - not - man - nor - anything - man-made! (PSALMS 94:19, 119:50, 2 Corinthians 1:3, 7:6)  HE desires to be a Father with each one of us (through Christ Jesus), which, is HIS reason for sending Jesus with the mission in which HE accomplished 2000+ years ago! ✝️ Knowing that, HE loves me, and, having ALL of the sweet things (KJBible, Holy Spirit, etc), in which HE'S given me, plus, often - reminding myself of the hope that I have - in the magnificent future in Heaven with HIM, and also, with SO many of my "loves," who have already departed from earth, etc., helps me to "carry on" with this, journey of mortality, which, sometimes finds me "feeling" "needy," whenever, I forget to draw from HIS "WELL OF LIVING WATER!" 😔  😌😘 🙌🏼 My daddy and I, were extremely close, whenever, I was very young (infant to maybe five years), but, alcohol gradually caused our closeness to decline. 😢 Then, years later, whenever, he finally got victory over the alcohol - some of that closeness was restored, but, throughout the years - after that decline, I have had a longing for a closer relationship (fellowship-wise) with him - at least from - junior high school age, until, this present day! 😔 I eagerly anticipate some future day - in Heaven, whenever, our relational, fellowship and closeness, shall be perfected! ✝️ The song from the movie, 'Urban Cowboy,' entitled, 'Looking for Love (in ALL the WRONG places),' comes to my mind!  Most people spend much of their lives - LOOKING FOR LOVE! ❤️ REAL LOVE IS ONLY FOUND, THROUGH, AND/OR, BY - JESUS!! 💜✝️😃 Parents - please, do not let, anything or anyone, come between, you and your relationship with your children! 🙏🏼 Children NEED parents who, not only love them, but also, maintain close, daily fellowship with them!  IF, they do not get this from their parents, they'll typically search for it, and oftentimes, try to find it, in ALL the WRONG places - in the wrong, things and people!! 😘🙏🏼👩‍❤️‍👩👨‍👧‍👦 ✝️💖😃 There's a beautiful scene on a FB post - of - Jesus - in Heaven - hugging a young lady (who seems to have just entered that glorious place), both of whom, appear to be supremely HAPPY! 😃🙌🏼 I am longingly anticipating the wonderful day, whenever, I reach Heaven, by HIS AMAZING GRACE, and, after I fall down at HIS feet, and worship HIM...HE shall give me the BEST ((HUG)) of my life (past, present, and future)!  Then, I shall completely sense the fulfillment of HIS pure love for me, for which I have, longed and searched, throughout the entirety of my earthly existence! 🙌🏼 WOWZA - I cannot fathom this future experience! And then, as if that won't be enough BLISS, I'll get ((hugs)) - from my earthly father, and, from a multitude more loved ones, whose presence I miss - right now, ETC., ETC. (plus ALL of Heaven's splendor - of which we already know - is wonderfully indescribable - not to mention - ALL of it's glory - of which - God has not revealed to us - yet)!  The thought of such a place is surreal to me!! 🙌🏼😇🕊📖💖 My, hope and prayer, yet, once again, with this post, is that, someone is somehow encouraged by it, realizing that, during the holidays especially, many people - oftentimes - struggle with all sorts of difficulties, such as - depression, discouragement, loneliness, etc.!  Presently, as I think about facing the rest of my life, I honestly "FEEL" like I cannot DO it, HOWEVER, by HIS - GRACE, ETC., HE'LL assist me, and, I shall - in the powerful name of JESUS!!! And, you can, also!  So, do so (one step of faith at a time)!!  Then, "before we know it," we'll be receiving our Heavenly ((((HUGS))))!!!! 🙏🏼✝️💜...👋🏼...until next post...