'MY FRENEMY - ANXIETY'

    😰 ANXIETY is the "devil" 👿 with which I am fighting presently - in this stage of my life!  🙌🏼 God has allowed him to temporarily torment me with it (around two years now) (I write - temporarily - in faith believing that - it is not staying with me permanently) 🙏🏼!  And, although the demon wants to use this anxiety (or anything for that matter) to - steal from, destroy, and/or, kill me, God's desire is - to use it - to make me more Christ-like (it's encouraging to know that - most of the people who God "highlights" in HIS WORD - struggled and/or suffered - in various ways)! ✝️ The best way that I can describe ANXIETY (for anyone who has never fought with it) is:  it is an overwhelming sensation with thoughts - conveying to myself that I am unable to DO (function) whatever the specific "task" is ahead of me - immediately, and/or, anything with which I must deal - in the future, so, it is a racing mind and heart, it is "feeling" like I may not be able to breathe my next breadth, wanting to escape from dealing with ALL of the frustrations of life - and hide away - at home, "feeling" guilty for having anxiety (as a Christian), and having all of its symptoms, "feeling"defeated by it, "feeling" embarrassed by it - and its symptoms, "feeling" afraid that it shall never go away - fearing that this terrible ANXIETY may kill me, it's bouts of  "nervous-induced sweat," ETC., ETC.!! 😔 I realize that at the base of this anxiety - a satanic force is using FEAR (2 Timothy 1:7) to give the anxiety it's momentum, however, this realization does not make it magically disappear, nor does it make it any easier for me to "handle!" 😏 And, I cannot MAKE God drive it away, and, believe me, I have tried! 🙏🏼📖✝️ The account in the Bible of David killing the Philistine "giant," with a - sling and a stone - (1 Samuel 17) comes to my mind. And, I believe that, through prayers of faith - in Jesus' name, and, for HIS glory - GOD desires to help us sleigh the giants, such as anxiety, in our lives, also! 📖🙏🏼  Whenever the ANXIETY attacks me, I do PRAY in faith, and, HE does help me (by HIS Holy Spirit)! 🕊 (2 Corinthians 9:8, 10:5) Also, HIS grace is ALWAYS sufficient for me - helping me to carry on (Whenever HE chooses to drive it away completely - is when it shall happen)! 🕊 I am believing that HE shall give me victory over this horrific ANXIETY - at HIS perfect time (Phil. 4:6)!  In my analysis of this situation with which I am writing, I truly believe that, whenever a certain circumstance with which I am experiencing at this time, ENDS, MUCH of the cause of the anxiety shall dissipate, and therefore, much of the anxiety with which I am STRUGGLING - shall decrease!  However, I could be wrong!  It has happened (I faintly recall - one time I was wrong 😉😂 Ha!)! 😉😂 This ANXIETY is rather difficult to accurately describe! 😗 It "seems" to me that the devil began attacking me with it - sneakily - and - has gradually increased it...until - now - and has essentially - ALMOST debilitated me with it (along with the chronic back pain with which I deal)! 😩  There have been a couple other times in my past - whenever I BRIEFLY experienced short episodes of anxiety, however, they were NOTHING in comparison to the discouragement coming from this battle with it! 😳 Because I know that - GOD IS SOVEREIGN (if HE were not - HE would not be GOD), and, everything that the devil does against me (as a child of God) MUST be allowed by God (my Father), I am extremely comforted (by this fact)(Psalm 99:1, Colossians 1:17, Isaiah 40:22)!  What the devil did to Job (ONLY because he got God's permission first) in the book of 'Job,' in 'The Bible,' is a perfect example of God's complete sovereignty, and, HIS absolute control over satan! Period. 😈🖤📖🙏🏼✝️❤️🙌🏼 If you question that God is totally sovereign, believe me, HE can show - and/or - reveal to you that HE IS (the magnificent 'I AM' IS sovereign - past, present, and future - tense!!) in absolute control of ALL that - does or does not happen - with EVERYONE and EVERYTHING - always and forever! 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 NOTHING "gets by" GOD...NOTHING (the entire Bible supports, and declares - this truth)!! 🙌🏼 One dictionary definition of 'ANXIETY' is:  "anxiety - noun - A feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome."  Here is a 'Psychiatry' definition:  "A nervous disorder characterized by state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior of panic attacks." 😳 I know that "my Daddy," 'GOD,' is not going to just let the old, nasty, devil - do anything to me (a child of God) that he chooses, therefore, I am also confident that - this anxiety with which God has allowed Satan to attack me, is being used for my improvement, and to somehow - honor and glorify GOD (Romans 8:18-28, ETC.)! 🙌🏼  I would not serve a god who is not sovereign!  HE gives me peace - via - the precious Holy Spirit, who lives within me, and, more peace - knowing that HE has everything "under control," even when I don't - understand, like, agree with, etc., some of it!  And, I'll be honest, there are many matters in this life that make no sense to me, so, trusting in an omniscient, omni present, omnipotent GOD, satisfies my skepticism regarding some of these matters! 🙌🏼😌 Dear friend, if you are battling the "demon of anxiety," or anything else (with which the devil is trying to use to - kill, steal, or destroy - you), please, believe that - Jesus desires to help you (John 10:10), and, if you are a 'Believer,' God would not have allowed Satan to come against you with it, IF, God didn't desire for it to be used in your life in making you more like Christ, and, possibly for other reasons, because - HE loves you, and, has a plan for you, and, in "HIS foreknowledge," ETC., KNOWS what it's going to take to help you to accomplish your part in HIS PROVIDENTIAL PLAN, etc.!  Cry out to HIM in prayer with - transparency and honesty, casting all of your concerns, fears, dreams, burdens, etc., on HIM (1 Peter 5:7+8), then - just - trust HIM! 🙏🏼🙌🏼 Here's a little humor on this subject:  God's given me, yet, another frenemy - Anxiety, along with my other frenemies - Back Pain, and Depression (who - thank God - deserted me - several years ago)! 🤣😘 As for me...I am continuing to expect - complete - healing and wholeness - (because I've asked in Jesus name for it) for my entire being - trusting my immutable (and SO MUCH MORE) GOD, and, knowing that - WHATEVER HE - ALLOWS - or - does NOT allow - is for "the best"...(whether it makes sense to me - or not)! 🙌🏼 Once again, today - I choose to - love and trust - my GOD (despite MANY things that I do not - like, understand, want, etc.), because - I am convinced that - there is a mighty 'ONE' to WHOSE authority - every living creature shall ultimately submit (including satan - who already does - thanks to Jesus' VICTORY of resurrection after HIS death on The Cross, and, burial (Acts 7:49+50, Hebrews 10:12-14, Psalm 132:7)!  ✝️  Therefore, I'm going to keep - trusting "my Lord," casting ALL of my cares on HIM, and the such,...EXPECTING - providentially perfect answers - (that I trust are RIGHT - whether they "seem" good from my perspective - or not) from 'THE GREAT I AM!'  And, my dear 'blog' readers - I'm - hoping and praying that - you are doing the same!  Let's believe God - together - for our VICTORY - in Jesus' name!! 😘📖🙏🏼✝️🙌🏼 Until next time...😌😉🙏🏼💖👋🏼