"The "devil's angels" and Strong Coffee"

     This post is going to be in "Dear Diary" style, and, I'm drinking a strong, black, hot, cup of coffee,  as I write!  So, here goes!  Dear Diary,  It's been a "blessed" day, as ALL are!  However, this does not mean that there have not been disappointments, trials, tests, and frustrating circumstances!  I chose to not go to church all day today (forgiven!) for several reasons, with the back pain level being pretty high, being the most prominent one.  I thank God for HIS comforting Spirit, Word, back pain medicated pads, ice packs, stretching, a large whirlpool style bath tub, and most of all, knowing that people pray for me, and that God answers, and graces me with HIS mercy, love, and so many other blessings, provisions, ETC.!  "Anxiety" tried, once again, to torment me, but, God answered my cries for help, as always!  At HIS perfect time, HE healed me of the "depression" with which I had struggled and suffered for years, therefore, I know that HE'S going to take away this "spirit of anxiety" that is trying to oppress me lately, and my "frenemy," 'back pain,' too!  The dilemma that concerns me the most about my current state, is the lack of desire and motivation for doing activities outside of my home, with which I am dealing. Who would have ever dreamt that I would deal with a "desire and motivation deficiency?!"  Maybe I used ALL of it up!?  For years I had an abundant supply of it!  I realize that some of the "devil's angels" are trying to destroy me with these struggles, and the torment that they bring me, but, I also know that, God allowed all of it, so, I trust that HE'll continue to help me get through However HE chooses, and that HE'S using ALL it for HIS glory, mine and other people's good, etc.!  IF the devil could have put this ON me, without God's approval, then, that would mean that HE is greater than GOD!  I am a child of God, so, that ole ruthless, lying, murderous, slanderous, etc. devil, CANNOT DO anything to me without my 'Heavenly Father's' permission, and this fact most certainly comforts and encourages me!  I am also confident, based on 'The Bible,' that HE has a positive PURPOSE for everything that HE allows to enter my life!  I cannot give up!  I must continue casting ALL of my cares upon HIM (1 Peter 5:6-8)!  I know that the devil is angry because David, who has the call of evangelism upon him, and I, are getting back on track with doing God's will for our life!  He is scared that souls will choose Jesus as their 'Savior,' when David preaches 'The Word!'  Boy, do those "evil angels" know what buttons to push in our lives, or what?!  Thank God we can pray, speak 'HIS Word,' etc.!  They are striking me in several areas of my life presently.  I have done very little today because it's 'The Lord's Day" (#1/7).  As always, I've prayed throughout the day, as though my survival depends on it, because it does (1 Thes. 5:17+18).  It blesses me greatly to intercede in prayer for other people, also!  I miss going to 'Sunday School' and 'worship' services (a.m. and p.m.) today. I've done several different things to pamper my back, that has given me temporary relief, for which I am thankful.  The Lord spoke to, and blessed, me, during my devotional time with HIM, this morning, and as I watched a few preachers on t.v., and online.  He faithfully refreshes me whenever I give HIM  the opportunity to do so, and, for this, I am extremely grateful.  Being a 'preacher's wife' has shown and taught me so much, and dear Diary, I'll elaborate more about that sometime in the future.  In my present "state," of "feeling" "DONE," it is uncomfortable, trying, humiliating, etc. to be examined "under the microscope," you might say!  Personal struggles are difficult enough with which to deal without living in a "fishbowl," which can make them "seem" almost unbearable!   But, God's grace, love, comfort, etc. continue to minister to me!  I have discovered on this journey of life, that the lessons never end!  Today could be the day that Jesus raptures 'His Church' out of here, and this possibility, gives me hope, which I desperately need with all of the heartache, pain, meanness, etc. that abounds in the world these days!  I truly thank God for this blessed HOPE!  My heart is full with thankfulness for SO many things, such as, all of the loved ones that are still here in "the land of the living!"  I daily think of, with love, grief, endearment, etc., so many precious souls who have departed from their mortal existence, leaving us with a void, that nobody else can fill, and only 'The Good Lord,' can console!  It thrilled me that I was able to let God help me, get ready and go to my brother-in-law's surprise, 50th. birthday party Saturday, for his sake more than mine, and then afterward, having the pleasure to see my sister, although only briefly!  I wish that we lived closer to each other, however, I'm very HAPPY to still have her at all!  She DID have 'Breast Cancer' a couple years ago!  Thank God, she is well now!  Thank You, Jesus!  I am overjoyed also that my mother is alive, after having three heart attacks, and 'bypass heart surgery,' etc., within the past six months!  Once again, thank You, Jesus!  "Emotional overload" expresses my state of being presently, also! We lost uncle Gene, unexpectedly, one year ago, yesterday!  He belonged to Jesus, so, we rejoice, and that he did not lie and suffer, as he well could have, after having a brain aneurysm and stoke!  God has been SO merciful, loving, gracious, etc. to our family through the years.  There are many more true stories of HIS goodness to us that I'll probably share with you at another time, "dear Diary."  Well, I've probably wore you out! Ha!  If, I indeed have, I am sorry!  It's about time for another cup of coffee (early evening/#? c. of the day)!  WOOP!  Who would have ever thought that I'd be a coffee drinker, and lover?!?! I surely did not!  I went from only liking its aroma, but, not its taste, to, sipping very weak (looked like dingy water) half cups, and gradually the strengthening of full cups happened!!  Now, I like a full, really strong, straight black, hot, cup of it, two to four times a day!  "Cheers" to all you fellow "coffee addicts" out there in "blogland!" Ha!  Thank you, "dear Diary," for allowing me to express myself, and for accepting me as I am!  Drink up, my coffee lov'n, Bible thump'n, friends!!  I wonder if there's coffee in Heaven?! Humm?!  Now, I'm going to go play the piano and sing praises to my 'Lord!'